IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM!

EXCERPT FROM MY JOURNAL….
May 5, 2001
Only you God have answers to my 1000 questions.
Please hear my cry, I only want to please you
and live out what it is that you have called me to do.
I wait to hear your voice…Please speak Loud…


Did God ever answer…?
Yes, in ways I could not have imagined?
It seems like yesterday in one hand and a hundred years ago in another…
Those 30 seconds, now more than 6 years ago, that literally changed my life and the lives of those that I love and call family.


The phone call…. It’s a rare form of cancer, you have one year to live, rings forever in my ears


The feeling ….. Intense fear, panic and a place of loneliness that is indescribable
(even with 100’s of people at my side).


August 18, 2002 was the day that Jesus began answering the cry of my heart and teaching me about his death and resurrection in a new and exciting way.
The journey of walking with Him since then, has been no less than amazing, he has been teaching me daily how to lay my life down and submit totally to Him.
It is what I had spent 22 years praying for but, never realizing what God would use or how he would go about changing me into His image!


As bread is broken to feed the multitudes in his kingdom, so I also had to be broken before Him in order to live the life he has called me to. The spirit is not broken but, the pieces of me that cling to this world and the pleasures of it. In that broken state we learn to rely and trust totally in him. It is in brokenness that we truly have something of value to share with others. It becomes all about Jesus and nothing about us.


”Manna” was given in the desert for the people to feed and survive on daily. If they began to store up this bread from heaven or covet it for the next day it would mold and spoil. My life is a gift from him and each day I am given “Manna” from heaven to live for Him. It is enough for today and each day I breathe is His breath and I live moment by moment, step by step.

I no longer covet this life for tomorrow or fear that the “Manna” won’t be there for me.


It is His life and by His decision I am here.
“The one who began a good work in you will carry it on until it is completed.” Phil 1:6
Jeanie
xo

MORE THAN CONQUERORS......

The strongest trees are found not in the thick shelter of the forest but out in the open, where winds from every direction bear down upon them. The fierce winds bend and twist them until they become giant in stature. These are the trees that tool makers seek for handles for their tools, because of the wood's great strength.
L.B. Cowman
Streams in the Desert

Lord, fashion me to be a "handle" fit for good service in your kingdom!
This journey is all about you and the work you want to accomplish through us as believers of Jesus here on earth.
When the strong and violent winds of life begin to blow from every direction please point me again to your great love and faithfulness. Fill me with the strength you continually give by the power and authority of your Holy Spirit!
Romans 8:37
In your name, Jesus
Jeanie
xo

MARRIAGE IS........

A short couch where your feet hang off and you learn all the books of the bible together.
It’s Forgiveness
Praying for the money to go far enough until pay day and then an unexpected check comes in the mail.
It’s Forgiveness
Five children that you are so proud of and can’t believe that the two of you created something so beautiful.
It’s Forgiveness
Many sleepless nights crying out to God to make up for the gaps in us, and mistakes we make with one another and our kids. Even when we have the best of intentions.
It's Forgiveness
Losing everything material in this world and finding out that you have Christ, each other, family and friends and that is all that really matters.It’s ForgivenessYour best friend and soul mate laying on a cot beside you in a hospital bed, and never leaving your side because no one can care for you quite like they can. They are a part of you and you can no longer tell where one begins and the other ends.
It's Forgiveness
The diagnosis that makes you realizes you truly only have this moment in time and God has lovingly hand picked this amazing person in your life as a gift from Him .
It’s Christ’s Forgiveness!
Jeanie
xo

JUST A THOUGHT.......

I have wrestled sometime now with the idea of sharing my journey online with family and friends.

Please know that opening up in this way may not always come easy for me.

I pray my life is a testimony of... God's great love, of Jesus Christ living in me and through me,

and the anointing of the Holy Spirit.

The true desire of my heart is that everyone I encounter will be more encouraged, strengthened and have renewed hope in Him.

l long for each of you to experience Jesus in a deeper and more profound meaningful way.

It is the passion of my very soul!

I long to hear at the end of the road,

"Well done my good and faithful servant" Matthew 25:21

My life is a gift, so I will give it!

Jeanie

xo